Was a fairly typical gentle-minded guy in high school. Lost my virginity at 16 with my high school sweetheart. She was a little curvier than I'd date now but sweet. Also cheated on me blowing some guy at 17 so we stopping officially "dating" but kept banging. Picked up my first casual sex partner at 18, a cute blond from HotOrNot who would happily drive a couple hours and split a seedy motel room to get properly dicked. She was a terrible slut but also one of the most honest and fun women I ever bothered with. High school sweetheart is unhappily married to some bearded hipster and sometimes texts me hoping for attention. Slut is happily married to an accountant who she runs marathons with. I'd rather hear from the slut, to be honest. Other than that, bounced around finding women here and there.
Kept at it but got bored and moved away from my quiet hometown at 21 and went on a bender with women. Did not realize I had anything going for me until I moved away, and suddenly it was like hitting a buffet. I didn't know why some things worked but they worked. HotOrNot, MySpace, married women, older women, younger women, college professors, single moms, white girls, Puerto Ricans, Asians, it was good times. Often fucked two in a day, once managed to do three. Most had good experiences with me except a couple I had to cut off hard because they were getting clingy or started thinking they were getting a ring.
In my late 20s, a very beautiful blond with DDDs and I got together and things clicked well enough that we stuck it out. She hated conflict and had a bad run getting married to a guy who turned out to be a mess in her early 20s and didn't want to risk seeing the inside of a divorce court again, which was fine by me. Had five or so great years and in that time I started the dreaded Beta Backslide. She also had a bad family trauma about that time and started getting religious - which was fine - and badgering me to join up with a denomination I do not condone - which was not. Was genuinely thinking about ending it with her because she was becoming completely fucking intolerable on multiple levels, and it was to the point that if we'd gotten married, I would've happily gone through divorce rape for some peace. Still, I love her and our history counted for something.
This forum, ironically, is what kept me out of going back to the single player life for a while. I found it because I was looking for ideas on specific relationship problems I was having. It rang true. I could see which parts of this were my own mistakes. I was able to apply what I learned here and other materials I found through here to get things back under control. We had a bad episode this January where I had to kick her to the curb after she had a severe meltdown, I was able to walk away with zero fucks given knowing I could get fresh pussy that weekend and would have an awesome life ahead of me, even in the short-term. That brought her back to beg to try to work on it. We've made some good memories the last few months, but frankly I think she has some latent seasonal depression that she is not dealing with adequately.
I don't know what will happen, but I'm happy to know that I have the tools to function and thrive if I need to end it, and confidence that I can not just succeed with women through dumb luck but actually understand what has always worked for me and why it works. I have this forum's "pro-fornication" phase to thank for that. I hope sharing my own observations from being young and single has helped a lot of guys navigate their own hard times, too. We've walked guys through catching women cheating, through breaking up with mentally ill girlfriends, through divorces, through simply seeing the red flags for what they are, and I think it's been great.