RE: Exercise vs. Prozac – A Battle for Survival
I've always been moody, and struggled with bouts of depression. I attribute it mostly to my overactive brain and the standards I impose on myself. I usually feel awesome about myself, but when I'm low, it can get bad.
When I was young it was from social anxiety, and tension in my household (parents having crazy insane fights daily). In my teens I got addicted to alcohol and that was my main source of good feelings for years. But anyone who knows about that will attest that drinking leads to deeper depression, which leads to more drinking, etc. I sorted that out eventually.
Another problem for me has been seasonal affective disorder (SAD lol). I get pretty bad in the winter if I'm somewhere cold.
This year I made a commitment to not let the winter get me down. Here's what I do:
Minimize the drinking. Once a week at most, and then it's in moderation.
I take brain supplements - gingko, vitamin b, fish oil, zma
Low glycemic carbs, and lots of fat (along with protein)
I work out 4 times a week: fast, intense strength training, followed by a long, slow run. I'm up to 7 miles without a problem. Usually my legs start hurting before I feel winded, so this is good.
I have felt AWESOME thus far. No depression problems. In fact, I feel very clear headed and happy most days. Super productive (when I'm not distracted by the damn forum lol).
Drugs are a short term fix. I've been on anti-depressants. They are BAD. They fucked me up and made me feel like a zombie.
My antidepressant story:
My senior year of college was the first year since I was 5 that I didn't play soccer. I was injured, but when I recovered, I had lost my passion for playing.
At this point, I felt I had lost my core identity (I was the "soccer guy" for years). I didn't know who I was, and I had crazy hormones raging through me. I began fighting with people, stopped doing my school work, and basically became anti everything.
I got put on Zoloft. This shit should be banned from the planet. Kids are killing themselves from it.
First of all, it made me not care about anything - not in an alpha way, but like "fuck this I'm going to bed." Also, I was in a fog - couldn't think, couldn't pay attention.
The WORST effect though, was I began having serious problems getting it up for my GF who was actually a total nympho slut (she had been fucking grown men since she was like 14 - dad's of her girlfriends even).
She'd blow me to get me going, but it took forever to get hard, and I could not cum. I'd lose my hardness while trying to put on a condom. Really frustrating.
She told some friends in class, and they spread the rumor around and it was a huge embarrassment. Of course I couldn't say "well I'm on zoloft because I'm supposedly depressed."
Long story short, we broke up because of this rumor. A couple months after school was out I was so lethargic that I just stopped eating, AND taking my medication.
Best thing I could have done. A couple days later I woke up with a raging hard on, convinced my ex to come over when my dad wasn't home, and proceeded to fuck her mouth and pussy 8 times. It was insane. She said, "fuck, we could have been doing this all year!"
What pisses me off is how many adults saw what I was going through, but no one ever stopped to talk to me. When they did, it was to tell me off or ridicule me.
School counselors and teachers were the worst - they just figured I was a "bad kid." My parents thought it was due to their divorce, which it wasn't.
I got sent to this asshole psychiatrist who didn't bother to look at my life as a whole - recent changes, what am I struggling with right now, etc.
They just gave me zombie pills that made me impotent and lethargic.
I'm all for heart medication, or other stuff that helps with real physical ailments. I know depression and ADD can be real, but a lot of diagnoses are bullshit just to make money for doctors and big pharma. Kids fucking kill themselves on zoloft - look it up. I wonder how many people who suffer depression are seriously getting exercise and have a decent diet. I also wonder how many of them are serious about actually changing their thought patterns. The mind can change the brain, but depression can kind of be a comfortable place after awhile, especially if it gets you pity.
(This post was last modified: 01-19-2012 09:51 AM by Iceinthewater.)
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