If you really feel you need a psychologist, my best advice is to find one that works closely with veterans who have PTSD, even if you are not one, and has a good reputation in the community. He will be much more equipped to communicate with masculine men and the unique issues of being a man in today's society. Even if you're not a masculine man there's no need to become more pussified.
Personally, I'm very suspect of modern psychotherapy - seems to be the realm of the SJWs and a lot of it is bullshit.
I highly recommend reading up on Rational Emotive Therapy instead. Much of it is rooted in Greek philosophy, particularly the Stoic variety, and it is the most scientifically proven form of psychology out there. You can find some videos on YouTube by an old guy named Albert Ellis, and he's a funny no-nonsense old fucker to boot so he's good for a laugh. He also has some books, and there's a thread here about his teachings:
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Read up on Stoic philosophy as well. Start with "The Obstacle is the Way" and go from there. You'll really be surprised how much your thoughts run your emotions, and stoic philosophy will help you build the right thoughts for more optimism, clarity, and emotional resilience.
I've also found "The Tools" by Stutz and Michels to be powerful stuff. Working from a blend of rational emotive therapy and the archetypes of Carl Jung, yet bringing them to a more immediately actionable form, these guys are the secret weapon of a lot of stars in Hollywood and the music business for making themselves focused and motivated and battling the issues we all see in our everyday lives, even when we're rich and famous, like inferiority and depression.
Finally, I think video binges of Jordan Peterson can be helpful. Flipping around between the different titles that catch my eye has gotten me back in step quickly a few time when I was in a bad spot.
A few other random snippets of advice. If you drink a decent amount of alcohol, stop. It's a powerful and toxic depressant, it's self-defeating, and it will eat away at every corner of your life until it hollows you out inside. I'm not here to preach to everyone who drinks, as I've had my share of fun with it, but if you've seriously contemplated suicide, it's time to make big moves for big results - would you rather end up dead for no good reason?
Start a workout program and get in the habit of heading to the gym when you start having a shitty day. A rush of hormones can instantly transform your mental state and the ongoing effort also has a long-term mood-lifting effect. Binge on comedy from time to time when you need to lighten up. Start meditating.
Last trick. Control what you can control - instead of thinking about big things you need to invest time or money to solve, look around you right now - what can you immediately do to see instant results in your life? Small results even. Make your bed or do your dishes are two examples - clean or organize your whole house.
It sounds trite but I cannot stress enough how much more it starts putting you back in control if you start with the small stuff and begin to get a handle on your world one step at a time. A man who cannot control the small things will really struggle to find the fortitude to control the larger things in life.